The Goodness of God: Even when I struggle to Believe.

My friend Tayler sent me the picture below yesterday of me worshiping from a few months ago. My worship leader friend Ramie was singing “Goodness of God” and what y’all can’t see is that on the other side of this picture, tears were streaming down my face. That’s been happening A LOT lately. I don’t even try to sing along to that song anymore 😂

The chorus of that song goes
“And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God”

I’ve been going through a season where sometimes I’m really struggling to see God’s goodness in my life. That song forces me to acknowledge a truth that we MUST cling to as believers. God is good regardless of what our circumstances or life situations want us to believe. And Chiiile, for so many reasons, 2019 has me wanting to doubt Gods goodness. But his Goodness is running after me. I see his goodness in my friendships and their love of me. (Ooh I really see it there!) I see his goodness in how he has taken care of me in a period of instability. I see his goodness in how he gently and gracefully breaks me to position me for something better than I could have planned. (I don’t know what it is yet but I have hope!) I see his goodness in the lives of those around me. I see his goodness in therapy (💀💀 therapists/counselors are heroes). As I make it through each day, I see his goodness and mercy.

And despite what my feelings want me to succumb to daily, I have to I look back over my life and see God’s goodness. In other tough seasons, he has always come through. So even if I feel like I am drowning and can barely breathe, I am going to sing of the Goodness of God because despite what I’m going through, my life is a testament to the goodness of God.